It has been a month

Yesterday was the monthaversary of the school abruptly closing. Seems like it's been either way longer or way shorter! Time is so wonky. In the past month we have been very busy. And very damp. It's been a rainy month, which is pretty cool for Texas. I would say it's washing away the past, but all it's really doing is tracking mud all over my house every time the dogs go out to pee. So, the rain may be washing away the past, but swiffer has been washing away the mud! I wanted to write last night when I was feeling inspired, but even more than that I was feeling exhausted. I have a new job and it's fairly easy in that I can pick it up pretty quickly, but it's very busy and I am worn out at the end of every day. Still, I love it! I love having a job description that doesn't involve figuring out how to make 200 stretch into 2000$. And knowing that if I make a mistake, the stakes are not very high. Another super weirdly awesome part of retail, is that clothes. I am loving picking out different cute clothes every day to wear. Yesterday I rocked pink tights and it was epic. I am not at all sure what I will wear today, as it's rainy and gross and my deerskin lined shoes got wet yesterday. Worst vegetarian ever!!!! Although, I promise I didn't lick the shoes. But it's neat knowing that like 1000 different people are going to see you and hundreds are going to talk to you, makes you want to blow dry your hair every day and wear makeup. It's weird that it's noon and I am still gearing up for an 8 hour work day though, that will take some getting used to. But all in all, I have accomplished a lot this month. I have sold everything from the school and it's out of my garage. I have my certificate to start the training program and my training areas chosen. I have a book in the works, a cool new job that I love, and a Christmas party coming up on Saturday. I still think it's weird that had things gone differently I would be at Miss Julie's today stressing and still working out the closing details for the end of the month. But I am so thankful that I am not. I still have some serious debt to pay there, and learned that a corporate bankruptcy is VERY expensive. I still have to finish up my w-2's, and all my IRS paper work. But I am getting there, and every day doesn't feel like another giant mountain I have to climb only to reach the top, sigh with relief then look ahead to a much much bigger one. I honestly don't know how I made it for so long, and think the recovery will still take a little while. I lived with so much fear and dread for so long, and was on the defensive every second, that it's tough to come back to normal and remember what normal even felt like. Anyway, I have a light bulb to change in my closet so I can pick out my retail outfit of the day!