Tired out

I could totally nap right now, but I am working up to going for a run. I had an interesting morning today, I had a job interview. I have had phone interviews to get to the face to face thing, but being on the other side of the desk was funny. I kept catching myself leaning back and accidentally controlling the conversation, and noticing that the other 2 ladies interviewing me were leaning forward and looking nervous a couple of times. I guess you can take the job away from the boss, but you can't take the boss out of the Julie! Hopefully they didn't notice it and just thought I was self assured or something! Since I promised you more pictures, I took a picture of my interview nails and me after the interview. :) Meanwhile, I have been picking up a couple much appreciated and loved shifts at Barnes and Noble, have I mentioned how fun that job is? It's so fun. I have also been bridesmaid dress shopping, which has prompted a rekindling of running. Stupid dress sizes being WRONG! It's so bad for self esteem to try on a 12 and not even be close to able to close it, when your pants are 14 and are falling off they are way too big! Does wonders for self esteem I tell you! But, I am back in the saddle, but not literally, horses are huge and scare me a lot. Beyond that, I have not accomplished very much at all, but am sort of slow and steady with life right now. I think I am officially past the part in life where I can claim to be "regrouping" from Miss Julie's, and just need to get done and and get on, and a new full time, well paying, great benefits, scrubs wearing position would be just the thing to finalize that in my brain! So, think happy thoughts of gainful and long term employment for me, and I will let you all know when I do if I get the job. At the very least, I have had some obviously much needed interview practice and can work on seeming more humble and like more of an employee/team player than a boss/intimidator. But, gosh, I just love being intimidating! :) Anyway, without further ado, here are my fingernails.

And here is me! Hello!

Happy Monday, I hope you all have an excellent week! Also, I need to brush up on my Spanish this week, so feel free to call me and just speak spanish to me! :) Adios, muchachos.

My 100th blog

I feel like it should be something monumental important, the 100th blog. I had the sobering realization that if you divide the number of page views by 100, only 17.5 people read this thing, so thank you to you, but with 18 followers, one of you is NOT pulling your weight and I expect better in the future! I am not surprised, since I don't offer tips or advice or pictures, but I would have pictures, I just lost the connection thingy for my camera, and can't afford a new one, plus my camera is broken. Once I get a new camera one day, or my new iphone in July it will be much more photographic. In the meantime, my table is finished, and I think I have a very old school way of getting a crappy cell phone picture up, so here it is!!! Yay the beautiful finished table!!!

Oh, and while I have the crappy cell picutres uploading anyway, here is what Brian got for Valentine's day! We decided not to spend much money, but I still think it's pretty awesome!

So there you have it, 100 blogs, some pictures, and if anyone wants to know how I made such a gorgeous table, it was as easy as sanding it, primering the crap out of it, then painting it! The grate is spray primer then blue spray paint! But, be ware. If you don't sand it REALLY well, you will need like 8 coats of primer! FYI, tonight is WINGO, you should all come, it's always epic. Thank you to my 17.5 loyal viewers, and yes, I realize that being off Facebook is what killed that, since I was up to like 30 for a while, but it's still worth it to not be doing all that! :) Cheers to the freakin weekend, and another 100 blogs.

Day 4, finishing something

I am like the last work somebody starts before dying an untimely death. You know, the album that never gets finished, the sonnet or Opera, or movie, or sentence I guess if it was a very untimely death! But today I am going to complete at least one project! Besides reading another 200 page children's book. (Gregor the Overlander=awesome! Make your kids read it!) I started cleaning my room again, it REALLY needs to be done. But before I get too far in that, I am finally going to finish the damn coffee table! Maybe finishing something will give me a kick in the pants to attack more meaningful things like bankruptcy. I did write another couple paragraphs of my book yesterday, but at this rate I will be done in 2025. And it won't make any sense... But anyway, I slept too late again, like 10:30, then read that awesome book, cleaned 1/2 my room, and am ready to get my paint on! Nikki and Randy will be here tomorrow, so I really want the table to be done and my house to look respectable! In similar news, if anyone has a maid they want to lend me as a 1/2 birthday gift, I would not say no, my house is DIRTY! Plan of attack: A coat of actual paint, not more primer, finally on the table. Clean the downstairs, finish my room, and think about my bathroom and closet. The closet is scary! Really scary. And that's sad since I have the most amazing closet in the history of closets, with 100 shoe cubbies, a great little built in dresser, cubbie holes for my jewelry boxes, and crap covering it all up. So yesterday I was getting my hair cut and Steph, my beloved hair stylist and friend asked if I was depressed. Maybe it was my gross clothes and lack of makeup, (It's hard to find thigs in my messy closet) but it made me wonder if I might be. Not like, quick get her to a hospital or feed her drugs, depressed, but I wonder if all this willful inactivity is really a lack of willingness to move forward. Depression, fear, apathy...who knows. I do know that I once again find myself feeling all alone, and am spending lots more time in my room and asleep, never a good sign. I should get out into this cloudy day and shake myself up a bit. Jobs don't have to define people. I could be the person with the super clean house and fabulous body from having 5 hours a day to exercise after the house is clean. OK, that's depressing!!! I think I am hesitant to do things because, why bother, I can just do them tomorrow, after all, I will be here. Yesterday I went out and went bowling with Amy's fiancee, and that was so fun! I won the first game and lost the second and third, but even that made me realize it was his day off, all I have is days off. I was not created to be a stay at home person, I need the world to roam around in or I feel closed in and awful, but maybe if I identify myself as one for now it will give me some focus. 9-3 is lots of time for cleaning and exercise. I think I will call my friend Madeline and see about some volunteer work, out in the world once my house is clean! What am I supposed to be doing right now? Oh yes, painting, cleaning, and getting ready for 4 days with my awesome and super duper loved sister, Nikki! In order to do that, I have to finish the table, which means stepping away from the computer. :)

New day, new ideas

Day 3 of the "vacation" and I am getting my hair recut, didn't like the trim I got at Ulta, so now that Stephanie is back I am heading to her expert care! Yesterday I took my another bridesmaid in Amy's wedding to check out the brewery for the shower, and I am happy to say she liked it! This has totally inspired my party planning love. Frances (the other bridesmaid), Amy (the bride), and Chris (the groom) all said I should use my time away to pursue that dream. It's funny how life works. My entire life I have wanted to be one of two things, a wedding and events planner or a pop star. I know, right? That's so perfect for me! Obviously, the pop star route has flaws, but I wonder at why I started a pre school, and have had so many other jobs rather than pursue the event planning. I wonder if some dreams are too dear to fail. I mean, when I lived in Tyler I did a few small events, but nothing like what lives in my head. Would it ruin me too much to fail at it? Is that why I have crowded my head and life with a zillion other things that are interesting and safe? Or, is the event planning just a longer term sign language class or book? Something that I am just not great at following through? I wonder if I am jaded from the school or just lack focus? Either way, I am loving planning this party, and can't wait for some funds to come into the picture so I can really zero in on what I think would create the perfect night for Amy and Chris. (And maybe the perfect launch to Events by Julie ((insert a more clever name in the comments please!))) I don't really know about a parenthesis inside a parenthesis, sorry if I did that wrong. College was a long time ago. Off to get pretty hair!

Monday: Day two of "Vacation"

Yesterday was day one of vacation, but it was spent in typical weekend fashion, hanging out and singing Karaoke, so I will begin my less exciting adventures today. I slept until 11:45, jealous? After that, Brian made tostadas, and I watched the Grammy's while finishing my 941's for the IRS. Then, I put another coat of paint on my coffee table that is now more primer than table, but the damn stain is still bleeding through a tiny bit. After that, Liam came home from school, I made him blonde brownies, and watched The Simpsons. Pretty full and exciting day, huh? The best part is still to come when I go to the South Austin Brewing Company with Waldo and Frances, and then to El Mercado with Amy, Frances and Waldo. We are narrowing the list for engagement party venues. Tomorrow I have pretty hair with Stephanie, and hopefully to go back to the eye doctor because my new glasses are giving me daily headaches like a knife to the eye, resulting in incredible nausea and overwhelming sleepiness. I have GOT to find my old pair for now, since this is no way to live. Oh, backing up, if anyone was wondering, I sang Wilson Phillips at karaoke, and Amy sang Celine Dion, and literally made someone cry with her awesome voice. Seriously, literally, there were tears, she nailed it that well! She also sang some other stuff, Hall and Oats and something else I can't remember. Now that I have some expensive time, (because let's face it, unemployment is not free) I should start to tackle all the stuff on my list. At least every quarterly report ever has been filed for Miss Julie's, so that's a big done stamp. My delaying the inevitable with the stupid bankruptcy has to stop too, but I am going to recruit Brian to help me with some phone calls I think, so I don't feel so alone in it. Also, I still really want to take some sign language classes, so that should happen during this bout of extra time. I guess the first step is to start waking up by like 9:30, and go from there! Maybe tomorrow...Maybe not! Oh, and in case this is a familiar scenario to anyone out there reading this, QUIT IT. I went to a bar yesterday with Amy and she was driving to her house where my car was and then I was driving home, so while we had an awesome time, we had to have sober awesome time. The other 45 people in the bar had crazy drunk fun time, and it seemed like 40 of them drove away. So, again, dummies of the world, you can A. Have fun not drinking B. Have fun drinking with a sober friend C. Have fun drinking with drunk friends and take cabs D. Have fun with your friends at your house or their house, and carpool or sleep over. The option of E. Slurring through karaoke then getting into your car and driving away, should not be a real option. Seriously, it's not that hard or expensive! In fact, option A is the cheapest, since water is free and soda is usually less than beer. That's my 2 cents on that one. I love to drink, you know this, but the older I get the more annoyed I become! On that note, after Saturday's fail, then yesterday's driving, and tonight's driving, I will be ready for some cabs this weekend, because you know I am ready for some vodka tonics!

"Vacation"

So, my time has not so abruptly ended at B and N for now. I am pretty bummed about it, since I was not emotionally anywhere near needing a vacation. I felt like B and N was kind of a vacation after all the stress of my previous situation. But, I can focus on Amy's awesome shower, writing more, and getting the training thing going for some extra money. Plus, how can I be upset when NIKKI is coming in just a few days and now I have the whole time they will be here off work! And my dad is coming on Saturday, and hopefully he won't be too disappointed in his 33 year old who is unemployed and still in some debt. Either way, 4 days of brunches, dinners, bowling, and of course some garaging will be amazing. I think I am a little more sad to not be going to B and N than I was when my school closed. I think it's not so much that I loved the job, but that I loved having a job, especially one I was pretty good at. I learned a lot about myself and my work ethic, and while I am VERY vain, it actually gave me some self esteem that I guess I needed. Hahaha, while typing this, I got a call from work asking if I would mind staying on call so I could pick up some extra hours here and there if needed. Hopefully, they will be needed. I do need to focus on finding a long term full time situation, but maybe this will pan out to be something like that while I am looking elsewhere. Plus, Amy's shower and all the ideas and plans I am making have totally rekindled my love of even planning, so I might pursue a part time thing in that arena too. I can't tell if it's exciting or depressing to be so unset and unfocused at not such a young age...today I guess I will go with excited and say the hell with it! Plus, I get an AMY day and Karaoke today, 2 of my favorite things! Oh, and to all you Austin people, PLUCKERS, South Lamar, Thursday at 10, WINGO is back! Be there!