Looking back and forward and present

I just went back and reread a lot of my posts since I started it a couple of years ago, and I have to say WOW. The person who wrote them, who clearly is not me, is very witty and strong. Whoever that person is has been through a lot and deserves a nice easy few years and a lot of consideration. In fact, her whole family does. Unfortunately, with a court date for Miss Julie's landlady looming ahead in May, it doesn't seem like things will calm down any time soon. Maybe I will get a book deal, or a lifetime movie, or a lifetime series out of the whole fiasco that has been 2007-present. Is it weird that when I had the preschool I would refer to the business owner version of me as Miss Julie, and looking back on the blog I almost can't identify with the me who has experienced and endured so much? I don't feel like I am disjointed on a regular basis, and I don't feel like I am disingenuous while writing this...so how do I explain it? Maybe the me that lives my life every day has to stay in it all the time, no matter what, so it's easier to separate all the crap from the routine. Also, if I blogged, "played on G+, spent too much time on twitter, and read some blogs today." every day, that would be lame, right? And, if I had to just sit around and dwell on all the crap I have put my family through these past years, I wouldn't be able to live with myself! At least, I am once again reminded that I am REALLY lucky to have such an understanding family. And looking forward, I hope I can capture some type of normal, predictable, mom/wife type of thing to make up for it all. I am thinking of some vacation time this summer, reconnecting with friends, relaxing, and embracing the fact that I am no longer 23, so I should not try to drink like I am! For tonight, I am going to Wingo, hoping to win, and celebrating the fact that even though I have a college degree, ran my own business for 4 1/2 years, and am a grown ass grown up, I am happy with a promotion in retail, and despite all the financial disarray, I am pretty content with my life right now.