Picture day

Today was picture day at the kids' school. It left me with sort of a weird feeling all day, because I paid for the class picture for Sky, but have no idea if he will be there when they get returned. And I don't know if bringing it to him where ever he is receiving treatment would be a good thing, or just a reminder of things he came so close to. It seems like such an inconsequential thing, how many picture days have we all been through? But it's leaving me with a nagging guilt. Of course every time I think that he is not so bad, or that things have been fairly quiet, and the guilt creeps in, I immediately think of how close to the edge he has brought us, twice. I guess I am not turning my back on him, I am keeping my arms open to Liam, he just happens to be behind me. Haha. Not funny, I know.

In the meantime, it's tough going through the motions of "normal" every day while we wait for the other shoe to drop. I am still worried that even away from us, he will become angrier and the lies may continue to wreak havoc on our lives, but I can only hope that this good deed does not punish us too much more. I also really hope that wherever he ends up for the next little while they keep working with him on his reading, because he has really worked hard and come a long way in that department. I don't want to see the last 5 months go wasted while he adjusts to yet another situation in his life.

Liam has fencing today, which is always adorable, so I am excited about that, and looking forward to Friday with Nikki and Tony. So, while we wait, good things are still happening, both with Sky and just with life in general.